Awww guys! You all cheer me up so much!
I'm having a monster week and everythings going wrong!!
I'm gonna quickly try and tell you all my stories but I'm late for my Sight Singing class (blah :rolleyes: ) so it won't be in detail!!
Ok so.... First things first I split up with Sal and that was that! It's just been a bit hard trying to get used to it. I know I made the right decision but 4 years is a long time to be with someone and I still love him, I think I always will, but it's just not right at the mo so I don't see the point. Anyway I told my Scot and he text me back saying, 'I suppose you did the deed then?' and I didn't really know how to take that? Was he just asking or was he interested??
Anyway then I came back to London but his cousin was visiting so I couldn't go round
but then she left!
So I called him up and asked him what he was doing and he was like, 'Well my girlfriend's coming round for a "chat"' and I was like Oooooh one of them! And he was like 'Yeeeeah one of them!'
Then he told me he would call/text to tell me how it went.
I never heard anything and was getting a bit worried it was late so I just texted him to say goodnight and I got one back just saying, 'She's still here I'll text you tomorrow let you know how things go...sleep well...' Awwww!
Anyway the next day he called me and said come over. So of course I RAN over! Other people were in but I took him a porno as a present! :rolleyes: <-- I'm like a man when I'm with him! We (me him and his flatmate) watched porn for ages in slow mo!!
Then he was like do you want me to cook for you? So we went to the shops for ingredients and he made me Spag Bol... flirting all the time he was cooking. I got whipped with a wooden spoon a couple of times!! Ha ha!
Then this guy came over and we all went to the pub and did the pub quiz! Me and my Scot got bored and left early and I wasn't drinking cos I was driving but he persueded me to have a few JD's! (I think that may have been a little bit of a plan there!)
So of course I HAD to stay. We watched telly all snuggly and everyone came home then went to bed but we stayed up. Bearing in mind he still hadn't told me what was going on with him and his girlfriend so...
We went to bed. Nothing was happening but I gave him a head massage as usual then EVERYTHING was happening!
He suddenly just stopped and went, 'This is soooo bad' and I was like :confused: huh what have I done wrong? And he said that him and his girlf never actually split but they talked and nothing got resolved so he STILL didn't know the situation therefore didn't know if it was cheating or not? Well I said I won't do anything if you don't want me too and he was saying how confused he was cos he wanted to but didn't want to be bad and said he had never cheated before. So I understood and said it was fine. Turned around but 2 minutes later he literally grabbed me and said, 'I can't hold myself back' or something along those lines!
Then....... things took place!
Then he felt bad. I felt bad. We went to sleep. I woke up feeling really bad! I apologised. I said don't be silly.
And that was that!
I feel a bit stupid now but I asked him in a text if it would have been different had he not been with his girlf and he said probably but he didn't know for sure! I don't really know how to take that???
Anyway things are normal between us again and he's being really sweet again!
I called him cos I've been REALLY upset. My closest friend is completely ignoring me and I don't know why so I confronted her and she told me she needed space.... SPACE?! I haven't seen her for 3 weeks cos she's blanking me! She's just fobbing me off cos she doesn't dare say it to my face. Anyway my Scot was trying to cheer me up and he's sooooo sweet.
But he still has a girlfriend so I just have to be more depressed about it all. I don't even know if he likes me??
Well if you read all that then you truly are THE BEST!!
I have to go I'm REALLY late!